2013 May-July

Thursday, December 19, 2013 3:06 PM ♥


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It has been long

Saturday, December 14, 2013 10:01 PM ♥


It has really been quite long since I last posted here.
This is going to be a short update on my life.
I have been struggling with polylife, and I'm still struggling.
I thought I would manage fine, but it wasn't like this.
I came to think that I was the most stupid person in class.
Why can't I get anything right?
Why don't I understand anything?
Thoughts like these constantly runs through my mind.
But I'm happy about the fact that I have nice classmates who cares about me
and they're really warm people.
I'm also super happy that I met everyone in sptc. (Tennis club)
Just came back from a chalet with them yesterday,
I couldn't feel more sense of belonging in sp than being with them (:
I was really stressed up from all the school work
and depression hit me really badly this year, I really cried one night after another.
I even thought of self harming and committing suicide.
No one really understood this pain. I had anxiety and inferiority complex (it was horrible I swear)
I felt really lonely, even though I was surrounded by people. I felt as if I didn't belong anywhere.
All I ever did was to act as if I was happy and forced myself to laugh.
But recently, it's getting better, I'm grateful to everyone and I'm really glad. Even though somehow, I'll still
relapse sometimes, I'm definitely getting better now.
But I still feel lonely :( I hope there's someone who can make this loneliness go away.
But I'm so afraid because something bad happens everytime I like people.
It's winter now.
I'm afraid of falling in love.
Goodbye. Hope I can cope with my projects.

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2013 Jan-Apr

Wednesday, August 28, 2013 1:20 PM ♥


It has been a long time since I post. 
It's holidays now! I'm back here to post. 
After O'levels last year, time passed so slowly,
One day seemed like a week.
But before I knew it, time flew and it's 2013 August is coming to an end. 
I'm sure that soon after, winter would be arriving.
A picture speaks a thousand words, So I'll let the pictures explain :) 
JANUARY
Finished last day of work at ikea and celebrated in xinwang

Went to the airport to welcome hoying back from Hk.

O'levels result day
FEBRUARY

Edwina's birthday celebration

Went newyear shopping with them

Chinese new year period day 1 and 2

Chinese new year period day 4, I got Starry (pinkbear) from my parents.

Cny River Hongbao
Ice skating with chenhui (sec school bff) and weiling (pri school bff)
Celebrated Liya's bday with felicia and co. (:
MARCH
Went to eat Vivo at clarke quay central with xue (:
Made my first homemade pankcakes

Went to the Underwaterworld with Xue and Madeleine ^_^
Went out with them (sec school friends) for a catchup session 
Went to Kbox with Bffs before school started (:
My very first group of friends in SP. The SP'ians 13 committee ^ ~ ^

My first time participating in organisation of an event, SPians'13 2nd event, sentosa.
I was in charge of Charades station with Isaac 
Went to 18'chefs for dinner 

APRIL
First day of school, with WeiLiang and Brasel :D
With my SPian's 13.
With SPians'13
With my class(DTRM 02)! 
Celebrated Hoying's birthday together with chenhui 
Met up with SPians'13 at night together with hoying
Polaroid with my Andrea from SP'ians'13
With the SP dance people (From freshmen orientation party night) (:

These photos pretty much sums up all the events from jan to april this year.
There were so much meetings with new people, getting to know them and making friends.
It was wonderful. I never imagined that I'd meet so many nice people!
Had tons of fun with them. Playing, Eating, Stressing, Having fun.
Too much photos already hehehehee
 I'll update again for may - august!

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