todoke, zettai kimi ni todoke. ♥

Wednesday, December 14, 2011 1:13 AM ♥


cousin(left)
zilians.
v^-^v
v^3^v
i got the HUXUUU.
decided not to hide my fat face.
4th love party.
letter.
club III their ring make me jelly only.
epic moment. best (solo) couple.

hello, here to upddate about today (13th) ^^.
today is just another ordinary day.
except my cousin came over to my house with my aunt and dad. hahahah.
she came over with a goodie bag for me, aww, how sweet ♥.

hahaha anyways she came over and she started to take my phone,
and then she continuously played with the games in my phone! hahahah.
for once i didn't say no ^-^ i'm so kind.

i spoke to her about where she's headed to next year, afterall she took her psle.
however the teacher wants her to retain, and put a repeat there.
she could've gone to henderson sec if the teacher didn't put that. =_=
stupid teacher. now ended up she has to go to northlight. which is a school
that she would be trained and headed to ite after 4 years of life in that school.
hahahs,anyways while she was here, i took the chance to use my webcam to snap
one picture with her (; after that i took a few zilians LOL.
it has been so long since i took zilian, lmao. because i find myself very ugly now.

i've got cui fringe. idk if i should cut back to bangs or what.
and my dad keep trying to persuade me to cut my whole hair, say my hair
alot etc. but it's not. =_= my hair naturally looks like it's alot.
but he not me, so he dk, how much i dropped in the past months,
by drop, i mean hairfall of course. anyways, it's 14th today <3 and counting down,
5 more days, to N's result, i think as the date draws closer, we become more
aware of the coming of the day, and eventually get nervous.

i hope we won't be separated from each other. i can't imagine life without my daily
bestfriends and my group, days without getting to see you. so i'm a little afraid here.
i hope we'll all be together, forever ♥.

oh, and it's wednesday already. sigh. later gonna have match with east view.
i hope i don't make foolish mistakes and drag the teammates in my line down again.
and, after match, shall be going to eat!

so many complicated things happening nowadays. like everyone's life is 
totally messed up. i still feel as fat and ugly as ever.
as if i'm never good enough for anything, never good enough to be anything.
always being a burden to people. always dragging their hardest efforts down.
i hate this fat body of mine, this ugly face i have, this lousy body. i hate me.
that's all for today.

bye.


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