misery

Monday, May 21, 2012 10:56 PM ♥


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you don't a thing about me.
i don't tell you everything i feel.
there is no way i can say a thing.
i would destroy you if i did.
because i'm such a horrible person.
i don't think i should ever be existing in this world.
you don't know what you have.
you don't know of how i feel towards your entire being.

you don't know how many times i wish to die within a day.
my self esteem is below 0. far away from 0.
i wish to die in my sleep every single day.
i wish to die every min.
i hate how coward i am.
i hate how fat i am.
i hate how ugly i am.
i hate my hair
i hate my blood type character
i hate my own character.
i hate my own behavior
i hate how i treat people badly.
i hate how i have fats everywhere.
i hate how i can;t wear all the pretty clothes i have.
i hate how i can't look pretty in anything.
i hate how i can never be pretty.
i hate how i always try to tell anyone about my problems.
i'm only destroying people.
i always make people leave me.
i always start attitude people when i find myself no good and they're better.
i have no self confidence.
i have no self awareness.
i have no self esteem.
i have no self respect.
i have nothing.
i hate myself so much.
i feel like stabbing myself a million times.
i just don't deserved to be here.
i should be strucked with all the misfortunes in the world.

whatever people said, were all true. i am a freak.
i am a monster.
i don't admit lose.
i'm just envious of everyone around me.
i'm jealous of their capabilities.
i'm jealous of their looks.
i'm jealous of the attention they get.
i'm jealous of everything.
i don't have any talents.
i don't have any abilities.
i can't do anything right.
i don't have something that i am best in.
i am always jealous of what other people are capable of.
i am a hypocrite.
i should be hated by all the people.
i should just die.




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