i don't need love.

Thursday, October 20, 2011 9:06 PM ♥







hello, long time since i ever posted on this blog.
exams are already over, i did try to study for my N's.
however i didn't study as hard as i did for prelims, maybe i only can study really hard for once seriously.

went out with chenhui and hoying today, i brought my prom dress.
it's abit tight fitting for M size. maybe i should've gotten myself the large one.
however the large one is abit too lose for me to wear too.

nothing much is going right nowadays.
i just hope something good would happen soon.
i'm still in the middle hanging on and trying to let you go fully.
sometimes somehow i still miss you alot.
but i know nothing matters to you anymore.
it doesn't matter if it isn't the same.
as long as you still love me, that was what i thought.

however i got what i deserved from you in the end, you've got your revenge
you have no use for me, you don't need me anymore.
i'm never ever good enough for you, i'm not pretty, i'm not skinny,
and i'm not so kind either. but i really did gave my best.
but it doesn't matter now anymore. i didn't exist in your mind anyway.
i didn't even cross your mind even once.
nothing seems to get better at all.
i'm just getting more and more miserable as i try to forget you.
i just keep getting reminded of everything everywhere i go.
i wonder how you can be so happy without me, and even forget me so clearly,
while i'm here like this, in such a pathetic state, it's sort of unfair isn't it?
for you to cheat on me and run like this.

nothing ever goes right in life, because if something does, the good thing would contradict
and that's when nothing good happens again.

i shall stop crapping. i just hope that one day everything would just fade away.

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