to be alone is to be lonely.

Thursday, December 8, 2011 2:12 AM ♥


this was when i'm trying the dress on the night before LOL.

actual day @ chenhui's house.
my hair done for 35$ LOL.
i find this the better looking one.
the ladies ♥

random.
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the prettiest girl i admit i see on prom.
girls ♥
some ugly zilian.

hello, long time no post, so i just decided to make a post today, currently came to post because i visited xf's blog and reading her blog inspired me to blog ^^. it's been so long since i updated. hahas. shall just post a few pictures from prom night and talk about today (:
prom, hahahah speaking of it, it's like, so long ago, like last month.
was sort of expecting you to be there, but end up you didn't turn up, well,
it's already past like, don't know how many months. i still don't get why i can't get over you.

yeah you, even though i was the one who took the initiative to leave. (i didn't want to)
but i ended up leaving (i didn't have a choice anyways)
better than being a 3rd party and cause unhappiness, the me of that time rather just
just and you can be happy with her, but months have passed and situation had changed.

whatever, shall end it there.

speaking of recently,  ~

wedding party.

club III

love party
today i had my wedding party in audition. and right afterthat
my audi cpl updated me that the new version of hack is out, and therefore,
he sent it to me and we instantly starting chionging out ring. and we had our first
 love party soon after we reached 30 hearts.

and i had training today too. i went for training and we spent like 45 minutes on drills.
and most of the drills, or infact all, consist of sprinting and running etc, then most of the
drills have ladder drills inside too. sigh, ladder thing make my leg go muscle ache.

oh, and before training during warm up i actually saw her. hahaha though i should be caring must but it's just so disturbing. for a moment that is. then soon after it doesn't even bother me at all.
because training doesn't seem to be so tiring but i end up having breathing difficulties,
like shortness of breathe and all, i wanted to giveup halfway and tell sara i can't breathe i want to rest.
but i endedup not saying anything. i'm just, too conserved i guess? or, am i just too strongwilled to just giveup halfway while others are training? i have no idea, anyways, this friday,
there's gonna be a friendly match starting at 10, with orchid park sec. gosh, we have to be in school by9.30. i doubt i can wakeup. but i have to drag myself to school. then following, this saturday,
there is a christmas party organised by dave! (: i hope chenhui would want to go with me,
honesly, i don't really like the way she's being wishywashy about it. it doesn't involve alot thinnking too though, but i think i'm the one in wrong because i too selfish. hahaha. and hoying is going if i'm not wrong. she's just afraid that she cannot wake up bebcause we're meeting at 1045.

oh, and 19th is coming soon after next week. sigh, i don't have much plans for my future yet.
and i'm too afraid i'll make it to sec 5, and i can't handle the stress, i'm also too afraid that i can't make it to ite higher nitec or nitec. i am also worried that my marks won't get me anywhere.
sigh, i'm such a coward.

even if i get you back, even if i can, i wonder if i will ever have to confidence, that you'll definitely stay by my side? honestly i don't for now. i think i'm just being an extra between you and her. i also know i'm not good enough, that she's like, so many times prettier than me, better than me, kinder than me, skinnier than me and so on. probably.

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